I envy her.

One of my issues is that I envy her a lot, and I seriously I hate myself so much for it. Why?Because she have him. BABAW. Yeaa, I know. I just hate it when I think about her like this. It’s something I wish I could control, but it’s not that easy. I’m just naturally a horrible person. I’m just someone who is constantly comparing myself to others. I can never comfort myself with being who I am, which is a loser. I hate it!Silly, both of them really deserves to be happy. And I’m happy for them. Just what can I do?It makes me even more upset. Crap!Forget it.

Letseng life!

Yung ngayon kana nga lng ulit nkalabas pgkatapos ng ilang linggo para mag enjoy man lng dahil nkakabaliw na sa bahay, tapos umabot lng hanggang 11:30 sinundo kna tapos pinagalitan ka pa!LETSE LANG. Di ba nla maintindihan na kailangan ko ng KAIBIGAN ngayon?!WTF. Nakaka-kalahating Red Horse pa lng kmi nasundo na!Hello?DI NA KO BABY. WTH. >_____<

But only one thing is for sure right now, the feeling I have for *tooot* did not change after all. I still love him.

Haay. May mga pagkakataon pa din na hindi ako makatulog pag gabi kakaisip sa kanya. May mga pagkakataon na umiiyak pa din ako dahil namimiss ko sya. I know I’ve failed my promise of not crying over him again, but what can I do?I just can’t help it. God knows how much I wanted not to shed a tear over him. EMO AGAIN.

It will be such hypocrisy if I say I’m fine now. Ofcourse, I’m still not. But I’m trying to be better. I promised myself one day I’ll start to pick up the missing pieces of me as soon as my mind really settles down. Even if someone new comes to my life, I’m still not get over him. Yea, I’m being unfair.

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